HIGH LORD ZEN

I feel dead inside…. Just thought I should warn you. It happens all the time you watch one of the high school love story movies and the next thing you know you feel dead inside… Like someone ripped open your gut and tore your heart out (yes I know it’s not the most efficient way to rip a heart out physically but that’s the way they did it.)

You sit there and realized you have never lived and all your chances at life are slowly slipping between your fingers. Time gone. I have very few words of advice (observation is my strong point not advice,) but if ignore everything else I say listen to this…. LIVE. Don’t be concerned with the politically correct and the track towards a successful job at a law firm or plastic surgeon in Beverly Hills. As hackneyed and cliched as it is… Live for the moment.

I am older than most of you and I’ve grown to this age tactfully avoiding engagement keeping people at a certain distance… staying safe… unhurt. Well maybe I want to be hurt. Maybe I want to have my heart and soul crushed beneath the collective feet of society if it means for just a few minutes I can live. Resist the conventional with all your soul… avoid what is expected of you and do what you want to do… Not for my sake (though I benefit in a bizarre and twisted way) but for yours. Most of all Feel.

Well off my high horse I just had to say something while the emptiness was fresh and the emotion pure.

As it stands I still haven’t gotten any letters so I get to fill the space with more of my own ravings. You know if I ever publish memoirs I think I’m going to call them “Dialogue with a Madman.” Just thought I’d let you know. Ever sit in class staring intently at the hair on the back of the head of the person in front of you. Ever wonder where they will be in fifteen years think about the fact that they could be running a major corporations or be chief of staff. They could decide if you lived or die. It’s usually around then that they ask if “were going to be tested on that?” Then you realize they are going to be leading the world and they are going to be doing if from that perspective. “Are the voters going to test me on that?”

Well on that cheery and optimistic note for the future I will take my leave of you.

Sir High Lord Zen
Knight of the Ping Pong Table
Defender of Wilted Plastic Roses
Lost Child.